I’ll admit I was probably a little too whipped too soon. Is it such a bad thing to love somebody that much? I’m tired of getting such a small amount in return. It’s fading away and I don’t even know if I should fight it. Is there even any point? I don’t think it would really bother him that much anyway. Would it?
Maybe he doesn’t realise that he’s pushing me away, but I think I deserve more. Someone who shows me the love and attention that I give out?
Or maybe I’m being selfish and it’s all in my head… Maybe I’m the one taking it for granted.
“The awkward moment when it’s Mothers Day and you don’t actually like your mother that much”
So for the Mothers Day weekend I was away for Andy’s sister’s wedding because it was up in the country on a vinyard (which was absolutely beautiful btw, more about that later) and I was coming home on Sunday afternoon (Mothers Day).
The week before, I had taken all these photos and got them printed and put them in one of those combo frames that I bought that looks like a collage of photos, coz I know Mum loves putting family photos up and she hasn’t got many recent ones.
I was leaving to go away on the Friday, and I purposely didn’t give mum her present early coz my brother wasn’t there and I wanted to do it in person instead of leaving it for her to open by herself. Anyway so as I was leaving I said I’d be home at this time on Sunday, bla bla bla, not to worry or try to contact me coz there is no phone signal where we were going at all.
Fast forward to Sunday: After having a pretty good weekend, we’re driving back home and I get phone signal finally and all these messages from over the weekend, a few from mum, so I text back saying the wedding went well and I just got signal now.
I get home with Andy and I say happy mothers day but I don’t give her her present yet coz my brother isn’t home from my Dads house and he hasn’t written in the card or anything yet, and Mum seems fine.
Then as soon as Andy leaves she has a go at me for not texting her ‘happy mothers day’ in the morning or calling her, DESPITE the fact that she knew I had no phone signal, calling me thoughtless and selfish and a shit daughter, etc. Then when I remind her that I had no phone signal AND that I just texted her 20 minutes beforehand saying I just got into the signal zone she accuses me of lying (even though she KNOWS there is no signal where I was because she herself has been there before) and says “There is always some excuse with you”, I always have a convenient excuse for everything and really I’m just a selfish person, is that all she gets? “happy mothers day” without a card or a present bla bla bla.
Then my brother (the golden child) gets home and I get him to write in the card and seal it up and give it to Mum, who at this point is in her bed having a sook and feeling sorry for herself. And I’m really pissed off at this point so I just leave her present on the bed and she’s being all passive aggressive (which I hate) saying “not to bother”
"if you don’t want to celebrate Mothers Day you don’t have to"
"don’t bother getting me a present just to prove a point"
"if you really wanted to get me something you would have given it to me on Friday before you left or left it for me to open with Christian" (my brother, WHO btw, didn’t contribute at all to the present NOR did he say Happy Mothers Day to her until he got home either, but she didn’t see anything wrong with that)
"there’s no point getting me a present now when you had all weekend to organise something"
And I’m just like are you serious? Do you really think I just whipped a present and a card out of thin air? So I leave the room without watching her open it.
Then like 10 minutes later she knocks on my door and is all innocent and tries to suck up to me and wants me to hug and kiss her and says its the thought that counts and the meaning behind the present, she doesn’t care about getting anything. Which is BULLSHIT.
and he still sends me random cute texts and goodmorning texts, buys me flowers for no reason at all, tells me he loves me every day, holds my hand wherever we are, writes me notes, gives me random kisses, takes me out to dinner, wants to cuddle and watch movies, etc etc etc. the list goes on.
i love my boyfriend so much. i’m so lucky to be in love with my bestfriend.